Sensei and the sweet pan I always order

Hey sup?! Well, anyways I've just been really busy. Like I had to run back and fourth to obtain my worker's permit so I can legally work here. After getting lost for a min. and literally a min. in Kobe I finally got my permit so I can start working here! Anyways, I just got back from my first day of school teaching and the kids really like and I also feel the same way. It gives me a new perspective on what it's like to be a teacher and there was this one kid that kept raising his hand and answering questions I was like "Omg he is the mini version of me with that know it all vibe attached to it!" But I wanted to give other students a chance to answer too. They really warmed up to me too. My co-worker is a bit sketchy of me because the turnover rate is pretty high for my position. Meaning teachers will come and then in the middle of the month quit. There was this one incident where this teacher lied about working here legally and decided to leave in 2 months because her visa was up so basically she just took the money and ran! The boss really likes me though which is good because she guessed it I am a nice person! *cheeses* I can see why he's sketchy and I don't blame him either. I teach at a wealthy school where the kid's parents are CEO execs, doctors, lawyers, athletes, basically any position that makes a lot of money. But yes we were playing this game where you call out a color like touch something blue and the kid has to find something blue and touch. Well, I said touch something brown and all the guys touched me! hahaha that was a cute kid moment! Well, next week I get to go to their christmas party so I'm very excited about that! But other than that, everyday I go to the convenient store and I order a melon pan. It's usually 105 yen and there's this guy that has a crush on me well it's gotten to the point where they know that I order the same thing the melon pan at 105 yen. I usually buy it when I'm down, happy or whatever but it feels soo good everytime I eat it! I also been pretty money savy too like I've been using my bank account a lot meaning depositing my money! So yes, your girl will be able to go out once again! Well, anyways I have to bounce but I'll catch yah later peace.

Inspiration

Well, lately I've been having this surge of inspiration. I've been studying better and everything is coming to me. Everyday I use skype to practice my japanese and after I'm done studying what I need to study for class. I end up studying something else. I'm on a mailing list where everyday they send me new kanji and new grammar to learn. I know I'm falling behind on my messages of mixi and the kanji,grammar, but yes my school keeps me constantly busy. Besides going out to a nice restuarant, sightseeing, or to a nightclub,on my free time I listen to japanese music, watch japanese dramas, or study japanese that pretty much sums up my life right there and I'm very happy. I have matured and I finally realize the cost of everything! SO yes, your girl grew up. I like studying though because I know that I'm that closer in becoming better in japanese. So everyday I'm learning something new and I use it. So whenever you are study abroad on your free time subscribe to a mailing list to learn new words use flash cards and study outside of what you're suppose to study for for tests. Well peace!

Osaka Nightlife

Hey Sup! Well, anyways last night I got back from Pure Nightclub in Osaka. It was the bomb and I luved it! I went with Leslie, Tsutome, and Yuki. Well, we were at the club and we had to wait for a while but yeah I was too scared to be by myself because well you know I didn't want anyone to really talk to me. But my fears were confirmed..eek! But I can tell he was a player though but it was all good the music was great, the club was banging and of course I was shaking my tale feather. My gurl Leslie was getting with her great dance moves! Her moves was on point so she was gettin' down. But my homeboy Tsutome and Yuki got drunk. Tsutome was trying to kiss Leslie on the dancefloor and then he decided to move on to a japanese woman. So he kept harassing her and so I decided to save him from her. But supposedly she liked the harassment by him and gave him her number. I was like "What?" But she was pretty cute though. But yeah, it was funny because we had to carry Tsutome everywhere because he was pretty drunk. Other than that, I had an interview today for a job and they really really liked me!! Yay, but now I need another visa booo. Well, that's about it but right now I'm just chillin' and I'm crazy some Pizza Patio in Sannomiya! Well peace!

The difference between Pride and Dignity in Japan and America

I was watching an american reality show from my computer today. I was of course laughing at all the dramas and the girls being soo catty and stupid. Then I realized that in Japan when they do a reality show it's mostly a reality show and all fun and games. Where as in America, drama and girls embarassing themselves sell. Then I started to see and realize something. I feel that when it comes to pride and diginity I feel Japan is a bit better than America as a whole. If a japanese person goes on to a reality show acting the way americans do on a reality show they would bring shame and dishonor to their family. They won't be popular. They would be mostly looked down upon. Japan is a very image conscious country and as a whole they really do care about their image and their pride. I feel that since it's a country of conflict they feel the need to do a reality show for the fame for the cost of their pride and dignity. Japanese people that are famous are famous for the talent or just acting a goofball on a variety show. Even though, I do like american reality shows I don't get why people would give up their pride and dignity for that 5 mins. of fame. Yeah, sure fame it's glamorous and blah blah but I don't think it's glamorous when you embarass your family, when people say nice things about you and then see you act a fool on TV, when your kids and grandkids will be able to have access to that, and when random strangers stop you on the street just to call you a bitch because that's how you were portrayed. What many people don't get is that there is a difference between a certain type of fame like there's the Will Smith fame and the New York fame. Will Smith is more respectful and has a better reputation. So you won't see crazy people approach him as much compared to a stripper! I know there are people like well so wat it's fame fame fame well you know what do you want to look back and be remembered for that gurl that got drunk and did something stupid on TV. Or do you want to be remembered as the person that has talent, and be respected. It's funny how when people act a fool on TV they demand respect hahah funny! You don't deserve it. SO I don't feel bad, but back to my philosophy I feel that when it comes to be on TV and be portrayed I think Japan has it down. Well anyways peace

Adjusting

I'm getting use to the japanese life. I'm starting to accept everything now, even though it is expensive I know where to find the cheap goods. I know when foods are on sell or clothes. I'm starting to accept how things are and I'm even starting to like japanese food. But I have to admit though even though sushi here is really cheap the sushi restuarants in America are more creative esp. in Las Vegas. Like you have all types of sushi while in Japan it's more fresh and just cheap. I have to admit Las Vegas food is pretty bomb though. I also met this 36 yr. old japanese woman and she's really nice she's living in the female dormitory too. She's starting to take on that motherly role for me like starting to really look out for me. I really appreciate it though. I also found someone I can cook for too. I still miss being able to cook american food for. I guess in a sense there's a part of me that likes to take care of people. Deep down I like to cook for people, nurture them just be real good to them in exchange for sincerity and loyality. Besides I haven't cooked a real american dish for someone in a loong time too bad there isn't an oven in the kitchen because I need to show these people how REAL cookies taste. The american way because american cookies are the bomb! Well, I gotta go peace

You want to live in Japan...

So yeah, I got some criticism from my homegirl about Max. Well, to be honest I really wanted to help him out and survive in Japan. When he told me that he wanted to say some things but he couldn't say it in japanese. That broke my heart because I know exactly how he feels so I wanted to reach out and help him. So I took him to the church to introduce him to some people and a cheap japanese course to take. I was thinking this can be his opportunity to practice and actually help with japanese, but it turns out that he wanted to only date me and talk to me. Then all of a sudden he started calling and became really really obsessive and very clingy. I would tell him I'm busy with schoolwork and plus I have someone back home too. Oh and that I was really really BUSY esp. with exams and stuff. Well, while I was studying for my exams he calls and tells me he misses me and all this stuff. Then he starts whining and asks me to see him for an hour on thursday. I was really peeved because well I have exams this week and I'm really busy. I decided to be polite and was like well I'll see but I have coffee hour and I'm really busy. Well, last night I was really pisst off because I was talking to my honey and then he calls me. My man asks me to pick up the phone so then he can instigate this issue. I told max that I can't see him tommorow because of coffee hour and stuff. Then he was like WHY I don't understand and started whining. Then I got really mad! So after that I sent him a message saying I was talking to my man back home and that I've been really stressed out and busy!! Then I also told him that he needs to take a damn japanese course too! Because how can you live here for 8 months and have the audacity to not look for a japanese course. I was pretty upset because here I am studying and trying my best everyday in japanese. Then I have someone that is being completely clingy and won't even attempt to take a course nor learn the language. I was pretty upset because how dare you want to live in another country but not learn the language. I asked him why he wanted to live here and basically because he thought it was all glamorous and how cool it was. Well, there's a difference between living and a vacation. A vacation is basically seeing the glitzy glamorous part that's all. But living here is a totally different story because you see everything including the bad parts. I mean yeah, I have people told me that my japanese wasn't as good but that's ok because I came here to learn the language and if they want to be stupid and close minded that's their loss! When I become bilingual I'll be more successful than them so it's all good. But yeah, I'm just fusterated because I did try to give out a helping hand but whatever it's cool well anyways I have to get back to my studies peace!

Some people don't understand...

How I'm a BUSY and a POOR college student! I mean sure I always make it a mission to at least go out once a week on the weekend but I have to pay for the train rides and I'm on a budget! Everyday I'm always studying due to how intense and tough my courses are being an international student studying at one of the most expensive countries in the world studying the toughest language is not going to help! I mean yeah I keep telling that person that when I have time I will hit you up but I am busy though!! adgkjadflkjdak Note the words BUSY and note the words lack of money to go out more than once a week! Well peace